Love that, god dammit! doesn’t give up on you


I hope you find a love that makes you better
I hope you find love that fuels your dreams
I hope you find love that lightens you up
I hope you find a love you’re happy to go home to. 
I hope you find forgiving love,
‘I’m mad at you but I still love you’ love
‘Too angry to smile at you but still sends a sleep well text’ love
‘You okay?’ love
Love that wants better for you than you want for yourself
Love that stays up waiting for you to get home before they sleep
Love that understands when you fall asleep 
whiles waiting for you to get home
Love that sings your demons to sleep
Love that makes your dreams thirst for realization
Love that knows how to make your toes curl
Love that knows all the positions kama sutra is yet to invent
Love that is dedicated to knowing your body so well that 
it can teach your atoms to reconstruct itself 
should your body ever fail
Love that knows when to leave you alone
Love that overwhelms you
Love that renews your faith in the world every day 
Love that, god dammit! doesn’t give up on you
Love that’s more honest than perfect
Love that stays 
A perfect sustenance of imperfection
Love and light.
Light and love

2am: the sinner’s saint, the saint’s sinner


You used to wake up after 2am
with little notes of how
it made your heart melt,
knowing without a trace of doubt
that you had found the one.
Last night, you told me nothing good
comes after 2am.

Every day, I tell myself,
this will be the day
you become a memory.
But that thing that digs
a finger deep into a fresh wound
is what the memory of you
has become.