After failed attempts to vomit your discomfort
You crawl back to yourself
and wait for your words to perform surgery on you
Something has been breaking off inside you
You are made of your mother’s resilience
and your father’s quiet sturdiness
You do not understand why your body cannot shake this off.
Savior complex tied up with fear of vulnerability
and a poor diet is another way of dying
There are no smart guides for dummies who
should know better than to try fixing themselves
You should know better
to make room for faith to be sang back to you
Everybody needs saving
even Jesus had God.